Then the questions begin ... did I do enough for them? Did I instill all I was suppose to before they leave home? Is their foundation strong enough? Did I equip them with the knowledge that there will never be anything in their life that will they can't handle with God's help and guidance? They've heard it all before but have they really listened and have it ingrained that all they have to do is trust God and seek His ways? Do they know that there's nothing they can do to make me stop loving them?
This time of year is always crazy! At work I have our preschool Graduation and all the end of the year activities. My children have their awards and special accomplishments. This year we have (thankfully) several scholarship award ceremonies to attend and soon Meghan's Graduation.
It seems with each event I begin to feel a little more emotional. Maybe it's the knowledge that "it's" getting closer. Don't get me wrong, it's a good thing ... a very good thing ... and I am so proud of all of my kids and their accomplishments ...yet at the same time I know I will miss them when they're gone. Maybe they won't need me any more. For today, though, I will just enjoy each moment and create memories (or in Meg's case, videos) and hold them close to my heart.
In the midst of all of these achievements, my youngest had made plans to attend a movie with a friend ... without me ... without another adult. I made sure every precaution was taken and she knew I was trusting her to make good choices and she actually did fantastic ... even getting done earlier than expected. I am so blessed and thankful for the young adults they are all becoming ... just each change drives home the fact that they are growing and their wings are spreading. It's all just another lesson in Trusting God with the gifts He blessed me with.
I am so excited that my dad is coming for the Graduation and accompanying celebrations. I know with him coming alone it will intensify the realization that my mom is no longer here. This is one of the times I know God will give her glimpse and her smile will radiate down from Heaven. She would be so proud of my kids.
As my dad is leaving to go back home, my sister and nephew will be arriving to finish off the last of the events with us. For the first time, they'll get to see Meghan dance. We are thrilled that we have family with us during this time! The quiet strength of my dad as I watch Meg's wings spread across the stage ... I am sure they felt the same thing when I moved many states away.
Wind Beneath My Wings
Wherever You Go
Until next time ... hold your children close and keep trusting God!
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