I miss you! There are days I go to "my park" so I can just sit there and talk to you and wonder what words you might say to me. During those times you (along with the lizards and squirrels and other critters at the park) have heard the deep thoughts and feelings inside of me.
Daddy came to visit us in May. There were lots of tears as the reality that you weren't physically with us was huge. I already checked on him today, knowing it would be a difficult day for him ... yet I realized, it really isn't any different for him than any other day ... he misses you EVERY single day!
Yet, when I think about you I see your smile ... I can almost feel your excitement at being in the presence of God and I see you cheerfully welcome your friends as the arrive, thrilled to show them all of what Heaven is like. There's no way I would wish you back from that! I know during those huge moments in our life you are there, celebrating with us ... and during those times that I struggle you are there cheering me on.
By the way, I am on my last pillow you made me ... I've used each one until they literally fall apart. This morning as I was thinking about you, I noticed several tiny holes beginning to appear. I know it won't be much longer until that pillow is gone, as well. Oh the tears those pillows have caught and I am thankful for the love you put into each stitch ... they were very well used.
On this, your anniversary day ... Happy Anniversary! Your husband, kids, grandchildren, siblings, friends, nieces, nephews ... even your cat miss you and love you so very much. It is a comfort to know that you are having a remarkable time with Jesus and one day we will be with you ... for all eternity, where we will never have to say "goodbye" again!
Until next time ... just hugging my pillow and reveling in the fact that I had you for a Mom!
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