It seems like when I post or give praise or I feel like "I've got it", Satan has been waiting patiently to attack and mess with me. I don't like that my initial reaction are tears. I'm happy, however, that I am a lot quicker at recognizing these attacks and where they come from.
A couple days ago I wrote about how sometimes I just can't understand why God wouldn't do "such and such" as it would be so easy for him to do and it would make my life so much easier. I went on to say that during those times of waiting and not understanding that God is actually equipping us and strengthening us.
Yesterday I received the long awaited phone call from the surgeons office. When we learned in January that my son would need major surgery I had it all planned out ... as soon as school let out we would have the surgery so my family would be here with me to help out and offer support. It was a perfect plan. A few months later I learned that his surgery would be delayed because his other doctor wasn't ready to release him for surgery. Not a big deal. I adjust my "perfect" plan and realized that maybe my family wouldn't be here during the surgery but maybe my dad would come back.
I then was told that his surgery would be August 25th! Two weeks after school starts back up ... two days after I take my oldest to college for the first time (who, by the way, refused to go to camp this year because she insisted on being here for the surgery and helping her brother throughout his journey of healing). Because of my new position at work I have to be at work and it all just seemed as if my perfect plan exploded! My initial reaction ... I sat at my desk and cried.
As I said, those moments quickly pass (much better than I used to be). I called the school to inform them that Ethan will be missing 4-6 weeks of school and then, once back, will be on restriction. They already have a plan in place. I just need to apply for the Hospital Homebound services, in which a tutor will come to our house a couple times a week. We hit our first snag when I informed them that we live in another county and we reassigned to their school. Just another opportunity to grow my faith and trust that He already has it worked out. I've had my house for sale for seven months. The plan was to move into the county where we work and attend school. Thus far, that hasn't been in God's plan either.
He's growing me ... He's stretching me but I can see that if my perfect plan were in place, yes I would praise God but how much more glorified will he be when we get the miracle of seeing His plan work out. I was told that they don't typically send teachers out of county to tutor ... but she believes she will be able to work it out. I desperately needed someone at work to help fill in and yesterday a miracle happened and I was blessed with a substitute teacher in place. God doesn't always let us have the easy road ... but wow, to witness miracles happen amidst the bumps is amazing.
What Faith Can Do I've seen miracles just happen ....
Until next time ... it may not be easy but it's so worth it ...
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